Alot has changed about..

I'm serious. I really haven't updated since like, febuary, and it's like, almost June. Anyway, school is out now, and now it's summer vacation. I have a lot to tell, but just like in my diary, it'll take a couple of post to get everything down. Anyway.. I'll start by telling you what happened yesterday, the last day of school, and today, the first offical day of summer vacation. Anyway, I didn't get atleast 5 minutes into the school yesterday, and Mrs Carr took me by the head, and took me over to see the principal. well, the principal didn't yell or anything, but he did give me the option to like, wash the purple out of my hair, but i didn't wont to do that, so i just had to sit in the office until like, 9, to get picked up. i was supposed to be suspended anyway, so yeah.. it was 'cause of the food fight that happened on tuesday, stupid dumbass' didnt wont to wait until the last day of school. everyone who fucking got caught throwing anything got suspended. damn. and for the two first weeks of eighth grade next year, we can't eat in the fucking cafeteria. lmfao. how stupid is that? god. and then, like, harley was supposed to be suspended too, and also, christa and keith. lmao. we all got caught throwing something, and alot of other people, but, i don't feel like naming everyone, so yeah. after that, my grandma picked up cody, and we went to the doctos. my fucking god. i waited for three hours in the waiting room for cody and grandma to get out of the doctors office. i kind of fell asleep on the couch, and carved shit into the couch with a blade. lmao. but yeah, i carved stuff like lines, and i put 'bomb\jk' 'blah' 'boo' and X's. lol. then afterwards, we went to wendy's and got food. then i went over to cindy's, and me her, and markie stayed up unti like fucking three in the morning, roleplaying around avenged sevenfold. god damn, jimmy "the rev" is pretty fucking sexy. lol. anyways, then like, yeah. i got picked up this morning, and we went to JC Penny's and got me a fucking like, bathing suite. i think it's real cute. it's a two piece. the top covers my belly, and it ties around the neck. it's white with brown and black polka dots. it has a black strap under the breast part. the bottoms are cute, too. it's like a skirt thingy, with a white and brown belt thingy. it's real cute, yo. <3.

& It hurts so muchh...

Life.. is wow. I can't really explain it, but it really isn't going all that good. In that picture, is me, and my friend Kimberly. She's a really cool chika. So, when was the last time I updated? Oh, well, I don't know. But, yeah, life. As I said before, life isn't what I would expect. All I want to do is blast my iPod and keep suicide from me. Have you ever had to be that friend that everyone goes for everything? Well, it look's like i'm that friend, and personally, I hate it. It's complicated to explain why, but I dont want everyone to come to me, and tell me why they want to die, or want to hurt themself, but.. I can't be the one to talk, 'cause lately, i've felt like dying. All I can is think of what I can do to get rid of the pain I have inside of me. I've bottled all of these emotions up, and barely have told anyone. I've told a couple of people, but really, they are only concern on my killing myself, but I know.. I wouldn't do, but, like, I would, but then again, I wouldn't.
But yeah, my week at school was pretty wack. It went back really fast, but the only thing I actually liked about it was talking to all of my amazing friends, who love me for who I am, and what I am, and not for I look like, and all of that. I might be making my friends conceited sounded, but they are so amazing, I can barely bare it. But yeah, I'm really awaiting for tomorrow cause, like, I am going to my friend Elizabeth's house, and we are going to party for no reason that's good enough to mention. :]
But yeah, there isn't really enough for me to say here, so i'll just go now, Comments?

Adios.

Just the start.

See that chick beside this writing? Well, that's me. Jessica Lynn H. I am 14 years old, and this is my blog. I wont tell you what you want to hear, but I'll tell you what you need to hear. I probably will go into descriptive writing about what I want to tell you about. I could either start telling you about my day at school, friends, life, or physic's. Whatever I feel like talking about. Yeah, as you can tell, my hair is shouldered length, dark brown, with blond in it, and that I have brown eyes, A lot of people think my eyes are amazing. I believe them. I wear makeup, that, I do. I could wear a lot or I could wear barely any at all, it's my choice.

Mostly, I made this blog this to vent my feelings out. I love blogs. I love making them. Reading them. Typing them. It's a good way to get your feelings out, and a awesome way to let people in the world know what you're going through.

If you read my blog, comment. I'd love to know what you think of my idea of letting my feelings out. I do things that people really think I wouldn't, cause when they look at me, they see this perfect little girl who is the most behaved, smart, quiet girl they've met. They think that I don't break the rules, but let me tell you, everything you've heard about me, is probably a lie, and then probably some of them are the truth, depends on what you've heard. Okay, anyway, I don't really know what to tell you anymore, so I'll probably update later today, telling you how my day went, I'm going to go... do stuff.

Adios.